before, when i said i was sore, i was lying.

dang! yesterday i took my first dance class in over 3 years. crazy. it's very, very strange to try to do something that you did consistently for 16 years after taking about a 10 year break. this body just didn't want to do some stuff. but i held it together! at one point, i really did think i would pass out. my old legs were shaking, i didn't think i could stand up again, but i did it. and then i did it another time after that. it felt good. painfully good. it's taken a long time to come to this. i will try to stick with it. for my mind and body. after i recover from the pain i'm currently in right now.

this weekend was nice...i got to see my friend arian on friday night. he's a big star now in nyc and flew in for a visit...he brought brendan and i some salty nuts from iran (i think that's where they were from) and he also came to see our show on saturday night.

i watched "annie hall" again yesterday. man, that's a good one.

then b and i watched "the graduate." also really great. i think i'm going to start a personal study of anne bancroft. whatta woman, huh?

alright...more later.

i love everyone.

sleepyhead me.

this morning i was falling asleep while driving to work. i think i really need a nap. wait a minute. i know i need a nap. or a full 8 hours of sleep.

last night we ate sushi with our friends mary, ravi, kenny, and lizzy. we decided to get a party platter since there were so damned many of us. we drank cold sake and at a ton of sushi and sashimi and such. yum. then we had a couple of the beers down the street. nice to catch up with one another.

ok. just overheard this...this dude at my work who is a decidedly caucasian person (and slightly bonkers) was talking to a couple of the other guys who are african-american. the white guy suddenly and without warning affected this sort of weird accent as he asked the two other guys for a favor. he sounded like a different person. it made me kind of embarassed for him. i don't ever want to hear that again.

morning thoughts 08.24.05

well, the shoot was really fun...i spent two days doing work that was easy with people who were really friendly and relaxed. as i expected, i ate excellently and guess what? ...i even got to take naps! in an actual trailer...with a bed! hurrah! now that is the life.

we did however, have to work out a bit for the commercial/print stuff and these old legs were a-shakin'! yikes! and today i am definitely sore. man, i need to exercise more. or just at all.

in other news...

my front bike tire is flat.

some friends from out of town are here in my town for the rest o' the week.

brendan made some delicious salsa again.

i have another couple of auditions today.

i learned some really exciting news yesterday.

it's significantly cooler this week in chicago and i can wear this new/old jacket i got at the village discount for $1.80.

here comes the ice mountain water guy.

my apartment is so very nice.

i want to sleep in til 9 one day soon.

i need to work on some writing today.

i will.

i will.

i WILL!

morning thoughts 08.22.05

oh gosh. i get to shoot a commercial today! which can really only mean one thing:

FREE FOOD!!!

however, the prospect of an abundance of food is not as enticing since i've been chowing down consistently since last thursday. b's parents were in town for the weekend and we've all been eating like kings and queens. we saw them off on sunday and then, just when we thought it was all over, my friend dunbar's mom made us fried chicken and mashed potatoes. wow. the parade of food keeps marching on!

also, my team had an amazing show this past weekend...i count my luckies that i get to perform with these people weekly (and for almost four years now!)...if anyone ever reads this and wants to see us, please come by. we are 'otis' and we have a good time. i can't guarantee that it will be hilarous, but it will definitely be dark and a little creepy...but where else can you see a show where people do a dance they invented called "the dance of the rigor mortis?"

life is good.

voicemail #2.0 (favorite vacation)

"my buddy kevin and i took...a road trip from iowa down to new mexico, we stopped and saw some people...colorado...met a stripper in colorado i became friends with. umm, i saw two friends in kansas...kinda had a real...real cool time, wound up in the desert in new mexico, we were working on a play at the time...it was just, one of those trip that didn't seem to be the greatest thing in the world but it turned out to be really excellent."

let's get outta here!

man, oh man...i want to go on a vacation.

anywhere will do.

i love...

when fluently bilingual people speak in their native language to another person (after you've heard them speak only english).

dearest zit,

what a pleasant surprise!

well played, zit! you've fooled us all. just when i thought i could predict your every move, you remind me just how little i know about the changeable nature of the zit. after rising up like a phoenix and threatening me with your sheer size, you shock the masses by sinking back into yourself as if you never existed at all. amazing! so zit, i commend you! for teaching me to never assume anything as it always makes an ass out of u and me!


very truly yours,
lauren

i'm so lucky.

there is a face that i love and i get to see it every day.

let me tell you about it.

this face is like any other face in that it has two eyes, a nose, a mouth and the rest. but this face is unlike any other face in that it is gorgeous. i know that i could stare at it for hours.

the nose is perfect (i was staring at it last night). the mouth is ridiculously soft. i can just look at it and know how soft it is. my favorite (if i had to pick a favorite) would be the eyes. they are warm, lovely.

this face is covered in sun for me.

this is the face that i love and i get to see it every day.

dear zit,

dear zit,

this joke you are trying to play on me is not funny.

you are mocking me from deep within my skin and the pain you are causing me is unbelievable. the worst part of it is is that there's nothing to do about you. there is no way to expedite your long journey from the center of my face. i don't know exactly how long you'll be there, but i'm almost certain of what the outcome will be.

will you rise to the surface like any other normal zit, grateful to live a short and ignorant life? or will you stay hidden for weeks, biding your time until you disappear back from whence you came?

no. neither of these things will happen because you are a smart zit. a zit with an itinerary. an intelli-zit. and here is what will happen.

you will continue to torture me for about two more days. then, one morning, you will show yourself. you will rear your ugly head and brandish your sword of intolerable pain. and i will have to deal with you. no matter how much i will try not to touch you, you will beckon me, seducing me with the possibility of a calm, peaceful resolution. i know the truth. i know how this will end. it will not be easy or satisfying and i'm going to have to spent the next week and a half catering to your every need.

you suck, zit.


yours,

me

morning thoughts 08.03.05

good morning.

if it's possible, i'm actually more tired than i was yesterday. and it's my own damned fault. no one forced me to go out drinking with my ladies.

yesterday i saw a homeless guy's pants nearly fall down.

i also witnessed a car accident. i spoke to the police and everything.

i have a huge, painful zit that's brewing and i'm not going to tell you where it is.

none of this is super interesting, but piero wants more to read cause he's bored with wounding lab animals.

there will be more and it will be better. and i'll do it today! that's a promise!

hangover haiku

my aching head hurts

i had too much fun last night.

oh sweet bed, to be with you!